Sunday, December 21, 2014


Many folks struggle with the same temptation repeatedly.  At other times, we receive an entirely strange temptation, or a once in a lifetime chance to do it right or wrong.  I had one of those recently and I'd like to share this with those who are struggling with hurt, rejection, or feeling out of control.  Now I see why I cannot be a control freak.  Any opportunity to control, totally freaks me out.  I found myself really at a crossroads of facing a very clear reality.  Remembering the facts is not necessarily carrying a grudge, but even in light of facts, my behavior is still my responsibility.  It truly felt like the narrow path had suddenly become more like walking a tightrope or highwire.  

Do you ever want to yield to temptation?  In this particular situation, I felt like I'd put on my "big girl panties" so many times the elastic was shot and at any moment, could fall down and easily give new meaning to turning the other cheek!  I've chatted with a few women friends who speak about having meltdowns.  I know a few men of Elohim who have stated a similar perspective, as in, they'd like to "kick butt and take names . . . and repent later."  I can't judge anyone else, but I know what I felt.  I didn't have the proper Jewish mother perspective, because frankly; guilt trips take too much energy, and my "church lady" perspective is just laughable.  I wanted to be a horse's hind-end, I truly did!  I didn't want to change my desire, I wanted to justify it.

A recent temptation brought horrendous clarity to my situation.  I still remember when Mr. B told me early in this marriage that in many situations he could see that "he was just rubbing my nose in it . . . " It never mattered what "it" was, that was his method of operation.  The strange thing is, he has chosen to NOT stop doing that, and finally about eight years ago, I stopped being close enough to let him rub my nose in most things.  That passage about a dog returning to it's vomit came to mind, making it much easier to just keep a relative distance.  This last year, however; there was a situation that involved proper protocol and called for me to just suck it up and stand within hurting distance, yet without wallowing in the vomit.  It has been clear from the beginning that I am not considered part of the family, but in this situation I needed to be standing by; close enough to be helpful or tromped . . . Mr. B's mother died.

When her approaching death became imminent, the more congenial members of the family were already telling me, they understood that I needed to stay on the farm and they would not be offended by my absence.   After all these years of "undivorce," Mr. B made sure I was aware that I was disinvited to the funeral, for "religious difference."  He did let me know after the funeral that his ex wives had attended with new spouses, and a fellow congregant from my shul had come to pay respects and said to tell me, "hello."  That's still not the real problem that led to my desire to yield to temptation, as that particular town and ambiance is very much like "Peyton Place . . . " My desire to yield involved a strange connection in circumstances that have been made manifest, just in these past couple of months.  Not knowing how many of the circumstances were actually involved . . . I simply chose to be offended.

As the talk of the trust being settled continued after her death a few reminders came to light.  Of course, I was not mentioned in the trust, but the eldest son's wife was . . . I was a big girl, in my big girl panties, and there was no reason to be offended in this regard.  My brother-in-law's wife has been a part of the family for 50 years . . . I respected her place and  knew mine.  My disrespectful daughter, however; was mentioned in the trust as a beneficiary.   Just a couple of months before this trust was drawn up back in 2012, Mr. B's mother allegedly asked him through a phone conversation if he was having an affair with that particular daughter.  We were all in the same room, as he responded to her alleged accusation.  Rather than just saying "No," he responded by causing a most awkward moment, saying, "No, I'm not having an affair with _________ .

My daughter burst out laughing.  Her husband wasn't sure what to think, and two thoughts flew through my mind, well maybe three . . .  First, Dana Carvey's church lady, "Well, isn't that special . . ." and then, 'I think I raised my children better than; to even think such a thing, too bad she didn't.'   That same daughter, after leaving our place in a complete fit of idiocy, called my brother-in-law.  Other than saying she called, he's never offered to discuss the conversation.  Awkward doesn't really begin to describe this situation, now.  I do entertain my third thought, however; from time to time . . .

Fast forward to a couple of weeks ago, an email arrives telling Mr. B that it's time to settle the trust and they need my daughter's address.  Then a letter from the Trust Attorney arrived.  That daughter was named specifically in the trust, and he needed to deal directly with her on the matter.    The trust could not be dispersed and settled without my daughter's address and I'm the only one who has her address and new phone number.  To heighten the pressure and make the temptation more enticing, the attorney and the executor wanted this all settled by year's end.  The narrow road now suddenly seemed to be a tightrope over a chasm.

Here's where my prayer got really honest!  I truly wanted to show my hind-end and I told Abba that.  Of course, HE already knew that, anyway.  Y'hshuwah gently reminded me of his own temptation.  I saw it so clearly, as he was offered "power and control" but, I also saw the cost of the deal that was offered in Matthew 4:8 Again, the devil taketh him up into an exceeding high mountain, and sheweth him all the kingdoms of the world, and the glory of them; And saith unto him, All these things will I give thee, if thou wilt fall down and worship me.  Mr. B actually tried to passively put me on the spot last Sunday morning by picking up the phone to call his brother, telling me he needed the address.  I simply looked at him and said, "The mail doesn't run on Sunday, don't push me.  You have to idea how tempting it has been to be uncooperative at this time."

I sent the requested information before it was actually needed and the trust was dispersed per "Mother B's" wishes.  We're not talking "The One Percent" by any means, but I literally, had it within my power to have delayed the settlement of a sizeable estate . . . Had I become the horse's rear-end I first desired to be, what would I have gained?  I already knew where I stood with those involved.  Since I wasn't mentioned, I had nothing to lose . . . except my integrity and blessing of YHWH.

Sunday, December 7, 2014

A Man I Met

In the debate and discussion of The Name, I'd like to share a personal revelation I recently received.  A couple of years ago, a new friend came into my life, through another friend.  All of these relationships began on the internet, through social media.  My friend, Terrie, introduced me to a man called Rev. Spotter.  She had known him for some time.  As internet history and tradition go, back in the day of Windows 98 and before the days of social media, we didn't use our real names, but rather chose monikers that often aligned with what we did.  I was, and still do have the ID emissary scribe.  That is "missionary writer."  Not unlike most internet moniker's this Rev. Spotter's ID clearly identified him.  He is a weatherman/storm chaser, thus: Spotter and he is an ordained minister, hence the "Rev."  Although I recognized him, and "followed" him, I didn't really know him.

As time went on, he became a regular contributor at the Goshen Gazette, through his blog, which carried the "url" with which I was familiar:  Rev Spotter.  As time progressed, we became genuine friends, still online friends, but the friendship grew, and we began to use each other's actual names.  We became prayer partners on occasion and when he'd make a teaching video or his now famous cooking videos, he'd send the link.  As I watched his various videos, I found myself observing different personal traits.  As a cook, also, I was pretty sure I could identify a few of his likes and dislikes, as I watched him prepare his creative recipes.

In his teaching videos, it became clear, very early what he believed and the passion he carries to share the message in which he has been entrusted.  Of course, his gifting behind the camera and his ease in front of the camera made his photos and videos quite enjoyable.  He also articulates well in his blogs.  His articles are a good length and they don't draw undue attention to himself, but rather bring glory to the Father.  It wasn't long in reading his blogs and following his teachings, that I noticed his name.  Why his name wasn't Rev. Spotter, at all!

Now that we have become colleagues and friends in real time, the relationship has changed.  I call him by his actual name, Gerry.  Although he knows I am "emissary scribe" and the "barefoot princess" in blog accounts, he knows me personally as; Eliza, short for Elizabeth.  The other day in speaking to him in person, I used the name, Spotter, and corrected myself with an apology.  Since that incident, I've thought of Y'hshuwah and how most of us met him as "Jesus."

We have the image that Jesus is the Son of the G-d of Israel, died, and rose again.  It wasn't long after I entered covenant with YHWH to follow His Son, I realized, Jesus wasn't actually Messiah's name.  The letter "J" did not exist until the 15th or 16th century, long after our precious Messiah walked this earth.  I'm also guessing the ID, Rev. Spotter did not formally exist until the internet . . .  Of course, I still recognize the references to "Rev. Spotter," but it seems so impersonal now.

I know what Rev. Spotter does and what he stands for on the internet, but I have actual conversations with Gerry and know some of the things that trouble him, as well as things that make him smile.  There are a great many folks who know Rev. Spotter, but friends and family call him, Gerry!

For those who met our Messiah as "Jesus," I'd urge you to consider the name He was given in His language and what His friends and family called Him at the time He walked this earth.  . . . the same, yesterday, today and forever.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Holiday Stress

Kirk Cameron is rather "spirited" this year in his campaign.  As Rick Warren and the Vatican lead mainstream Christianity into Chrislam, Kirk's definition of a woman's place is a bit unsettling.  His trailers and promos have brought many thoughts of my own history of coming to the place I now am.  Kirk Cameron's latest proclamation about how much responsibility lies on the woman of the house, brought a cavalcade of crazy memories that nearly drowned my soul.   It was certainly not a living water experience . . .  The memories of a double boiler of chocolate on the back burner of the stove through the month of December for candy making.  All the projects hidden to be worked on in the wee hours of the night.  The packages that were rewrapped by snoopers and peekers.  The money that was spent, that brought no true valued gifts to anyone's life.  As an introvert, I hated attending and even worse, hosting holiday parties, but, it was part of my responsibility to make the "Christmas magic" happen!

Even in all that chaos and mayhem, I didn't shun and reject Christmas right away.  Actually, it was quite a gradual thing of being shunned by those who participated.  Back in the early nineties I became aware of how incredibly commercialized and self-focused Christmas was.  Then when I became a true covenant believer in 1994, I truly wanted to put Christ back in Christmas, also.  The main problem, I learned later, was Christ is not the English or Latin or Greek translation of מָשִׁ֫יחַ [Moshiach.]  Messiah is the English translation of the Hebrew term and Messiah was never in Christmas.  I didn't have access to all the information that is now available on the internet, and twenty years ago, there were very few folks to ask.  Even Jews for Jesus celebrate Christmas!  To further complicate my dilemma, I didn't know how to keep the Fifth Commandment while separating myself from the traditions of "G-d, Country and Family."

Our family also embraces the tradition of dysfunction, minus the "fun," and I was a main character.  As a new believer, I didn't want my good to be spoken evil of.  I didn't know how to make up for past disrespect and absence, other than to now attend.  So, I made good food, a birthday cake for Jesus, and muddled through a couple more years.  Easter didn't hold the same dilemma.  Although I loved the colorful eggs, a sneaky rabbit had really never been a part of our Easter celebration and the 1/2 price Russell Stover's the Monday following seemed like a good idea at the time.  I didn't really feel torn between observing the Feast Days of Elohim and the traditional holidays.  They truly didn't seem related.  The Feast Days of Abba were spiritual, and the family gatherings were grueling obligations.

In 1997, I discovered the truth of Jeremiah 10:3-4 and even with the Christian explanation, I knew that was the last year for a Christmas tree. I was shown a vision of so many on their knees arranging the tree skirt and packages, I just could not "unsee" that image.  By the late nineties, I realized my former reputation in the family was going to prevail regardless of the books I wrote and the faith I proclaimed, so 1999 was the end of my attempted attendance.  There was much less chance of yielding to temptation if I simply didn't participate and attempt to defend myself.  When I married in 2002, in just a matter of months; it was revealed that my husband's solo attendance was preferred at his family gatherings, so that issue was resolved without a problem.

 I gave up on the birthday cake for "Jesus" when I realized Messiah's True name, Y'hshuah, just didn't look right on a cake in December.  Even, Immanuel, didn't look right!   Messiah said His burden is light and His yoke is easy.  If we are finding ourselves obligated to a month of high stress, a choice between overtime or debt, and feeling forced to not only smile through it, but create merriment, isn't it time to consider the real meaning of this tradition?  It's not even December yet, and taking the family to "Saving Christmas" is going to cost how much?


Sunday, November 9, 2014

Unity in The Body - Hands

The words of one of my granddaughters came to my mind this morning through my devotion time.  She had made a comment, several years ago, as I was building a fire in the wood stove in the Tabernacle.  I won't quote it exactly right, I'm sure; but she expressed her thought almost poetically.   She spoke of my hands, so strong and able to carry the logs and start the fire, yet gentle to hold and comfort a baby.  She went on with her observation of her G-ma's hands in that they prepared her good food, fixed her hair.  I was deeply moved by what she shared.  When Abba brought it back to my remembrance this morning, I suddenly saw this as a new perspective on unity.  The words of that little ten year old girl apply to us, the body of Messiah.
Many of us have spoken or written articles with the focus that we are all called to be different parts of the same body, and I am certainly not arguing that, as that is Scripture, but I also see that the same part of the body may need to function differently.  We certainly don't need to handle firewood in the same manner we'd carry a baby, and definitely vice versa!  Yet both tasks are valuable, and done with our hands.  As we are all aware, folks have a different style of presentation and delivery.  I'll scrutinize myself, first.  I tend to be somewhat blunt and to the point.  This works well with active kids under 13 and adults who prefer to do more of the talking.  On other occasions, I can speak to a crowd and seem to maintain their attention and interests.  I do have the ability to interact in conversation over coffee, but in each situation, the others involved are different.  My message doesn't change, nor do my interests and abilities, just the way I "handle" the circumstances and need.

We seem to often think in order to fellowship we must all have the same approach and "handling" methods.  What if we set that notion aside and truly considered the head of this body?  What if we really do need to use our hands to applaud other's abilities, rather than pointing fingers of criticism?  I'm not going all ecumenical and kumbaya here, but raising a serious consideration that I think is being overlooked.  Obviously we can't aim for unity, that takes our eyes off of Messiah and in seeking unity we can actually miss seeking YHWH with a whole heart.  Unity will come when all eyes are on Messiah, all hearts are seeking YHWH and we're in obedience, "busy about our Father's business."  Other than what is specified in Scripture, as outlined in the Ten Commandments we are told in I Corinthians there are many administrations of the same Spirit.

So many of the tasks Abba calls us to, doesn't really take a group to accomplish, it takes His power through those who are willing and obedient.  It would be nice to have a group to bear a unified witness of His goodness and grace.  I'm sure He's pleased with a unified people who give glory, honor and praise to Him. Messiah spoke of touching in agreement, so we know a group with hands clasped in prayer does indeed touch heaven. As we pray for Messiah's return, we do hold a piece of that answer.  His return for a bride without spot, wrinkle, or blemish, is an assembly who jointly raise "holy hands" in unity.

Sunday, November 2, 2014

Greater Things

Y'hshuah said we'd do greater works, and John said the world couldn't contain all the books if everything Messiah did had been documented.

Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father.  John 14:12

And there are also many other things which Jesus did, the which, if they should be written every one, I suppose that even the world itself could not contain the books that should be written. Amen.  John 21:25

What are we missing?  We aren't even seeing what was recorded in Scripture, much less believing for what is beyond "too numerous" to document.  Why are we willing to settle for so much less and still call ourselves, believers?  What exactly are we believing?  Y'hshuah had not yet come to earth in the flesh as we read of waters parting, manna falling, flour and oil of continuing perpetual supply, the dead raised, fire that doesn't kill three brave young men, and another brave young man who is not consumed by hungry lions . . . Then Messiah comes and heals the sick, casts out demons, raises the dead, and walks on water.  After all that, he says those who believe on him will do great works . . . I want that!  And yet, we have "this" and settle for it.

It can't be obtained in increased knowledge or decoding supposed encrypted passages, or even outside resources.  That's not to say we aren't to seek to know more, because we are.  We are instructed to study to show ourselves approved, but actually we are called to seek to know Him more . . .  So many of us read the Bible as a history book and to be the "smartest kid" in the clique, but knowing the most about the Book isn't the same as intimately knowing the Author.  The book of Acts clearly states that the disciples were not highly educated men, yet they had been with Y'hshuah.   Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were unlearned and ignorant men, they marvelled; and they took knowledge of them, that they had been with Y'hshuah.  Acts 4:13 

Presently, I don't really have the answer to this dilemma, and truthfully, I don't need an answer as to why we don't see it, I want to know and do what it takes for Abba to be able to use me in this manner.  I want Messiah's prophetic word in John 14:12 to be manifest in my life.  I don't really want to focus on why we don't see it, I want to SEE it!  If the very last verse of the gospel according to John tells us that Messiah did so much more than was even recorded, why are we settling for so much less than has been documented?  Is the power lost in the mistranslation of Messiah's Name?  I believe that's a part of it, but I also believe we have accepted the teachings and traditions of man that include a great many of our socially approved solutions into the equation; thus:  mixing holy with profane.

Just as faith and doubt have no place together, neither do love and fear; and most assuredly anything promoted by our current society probably flies in direct opposition to the Plan of our Creator and the Promise of Messiah!

We are going to have to come farther "out from among them and be truly separate" in our walk, talk, understanding, and application of the Word in our lives.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

A Curious Observation

Upon receiving orders from on High regarding practical preparation, I've done some research and some shopping.  Before making any purchases, I pray and seek Abba, but I do believe He gave us brains for a reason, so I also have done some studying.

As we all know, money isn't worth much these days, and very soon, it will be utterly worthless, so I'm making what I believe are some serious long term investments.  I'm not building bigger barns and I'm certainly not even thinking life as we know it is coming back, but I was called to this place to establish it and stand in the gap on behalf of the land, so I've taken that seriously.  I haven't felt as successful as I'd like to be.  There have been a couple of setbacks and hurdles, but I know a lot more than I did ten years ago.  Actually, more than I did 10 days ago, so there has been progress.

Since animals and meat are mentioned through the year of letting the land rest, I figured this was a good year to truly focus on the herd.  What better place to learn than Jacob's method of herd strengthening?  Through this, I also remembered the herd I built through the last Shemitah.  They were still going strong when I sold them to enlarge the herd.  Before obtaining a large buck, per instruction, I had to sell all the small does, for their health and safety.  The herd of small stature was literally divided and sold to two farms to ensure the bucks were not related to the does.  The herd I built through the last Shemitah was quite strong and prolific, so I took note of the timing.  Now, this time is once again at hand, and I'm building a herd of larger stature, so I've been shopping around and went to a livestock auction this week.

In studying Scripture and researching goat breeds, I've always known solid white goats were out of the question for me.  When I let a grandchild talk me into it, calamity followed.  So, in this endeavor, I shall not be moved.  There are many beautifully marked and varying colors for the goat breeds, but I discovered only two breeds of goats originated here in America, and their traits are quite telling.  First, the myotonic breed of goats is considered the only indigenous species.  The history is interesting, but the unique trait of these goats is the fact that as goats go, they are more fearful than curious.  They tend to not jump and are "easily contained."  When they become anxious, their back legs literally lock up.  Considering current events, this goat just seems to demonstrate the spirit of so many in this country . . . FEAR.

The other American breed of goat is called a LaMancha, and it was actually "designed" and "built" by a woman in Oregon.  The quality of uniqueness in this breed is the absence of ears.  They, literally, do not have enough "ear" for a USDA clip, which is about like a pierced earring.  Every time I look at one of those goats, all that comes to mind is how reflective this goat is of America . . . "no ears to hear."

I'm feeling led to build a Goshen breed of goats, that will be spotted, striped, and streaked of all colors; but their ears will also be unique.  Just as Jacob took care in breeding the herd at the water hole, I'm carefully selecting as well.  There will be no Saanens, no Myotonic, and LaManchas will be limited to outreach . . .  I asked Abba, years ago if I could "live the Bible."  He's allowed many opportunities to do just that!  We are all going to be "living the Bible," it's just a matter of blessing or judgment.

I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live:  Deuteronomy 30:19

Sunday, August 17, 2014


As I've collected my thoughts and notes for this article, I am reminded, I need this reminder.  As editor of this publication, it's easy to see and become focused on the turmoil as the tempest increases.  I remind myself frequently of Messiah's words in Luke 21:28 And when these things begin to come to pass, then look up, and lift up your heads; for your redemption draweth nigh.   This article may sound a bit like a trip down memory lane, and perhaps it should, as our focus in life seems to be aimed more at what we are against than what and Whom we believe.

I can testify in my own life the varying issues that took my focus along the way through my spiritual walk and even before.  I want to take this moment to say, social media is doing a great deal of promotion of Oral Torah and the Noahide laws, and I've done enough research on both in writing a book a few years ago, to say, avoid the distraction.  Neither provide edification, but rather have served to take many away from seeking YHWH through Messiah.  But there are other issues believers get focused on as well, that don't necessarily cause them to turn away, but rather stifle their walk and silence their witness, while they still believe themselves to be moving forward on the narrow path.

The enemy is not omnipresent, nor is he omniscient, but he is a shape-shifter and he loves attention, especially the attention of those who claim to be believers.

When we stop and think of how many things we are against that get our attention, it's mind-boggling.  I am against tampering with creation, so I have a "Nonsanto" website and logo and I'm staunchly opposed to pharmaceuticals, but I also spend a great deal more time and definitely more energy sharing and encouraging organic gardening, natural food preservation, and healthy recipes.  In this publication, I have made a concerted effort to make sure I offer a plan, not just a criticism.  So far all of the Anti-Monsanto protests have been on Sabbath, making it so obvious, I can't just protest something, in following Messiah, I have to also be able to offer something "To Do."

Throughout the years, there has been an off and on focus of deliverance, but I've yet to see the focus remain on Messiah, once those "ministries" are officially declared.  I cringe when I hear the term demonology and I shudder when I watch someone set themselves up as the one who can deliver the deliverance.  YHWH is our deliverer in Messiah, and none other.

The focus on abortion is another troubling issue.  Oh, I don't believe in abortion, but it is a clear example of being focused on what we are against, and sometimes the better option is lost in the rhetoric.  I, personally, made the choice to live at a certain income level, so I would not pay taxes that fund Planned Parenthood.  Abba has never failed to provide for me, and I've been blessed to hold a number of sweet babies and provide gifts for them.

To be honest, ISIS is the current satanic focus in my awareness, and it rears a very ugly head.  The story of the Maccabees comes to mind frequently as I read the headlines.  I find it a real challenge to bring those thoughts captive and focus on the victory that is the end of the story . . .  Current events are turbulent, and Scripture indicates it will get worse before we see Messiah.  We must keep our eyes on Him, or the horror will indeed become our focus.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Fig Tree in Leaf?

I grew up like most folks of my era with the traditions of man being taught as the Truth of G-d.  In the past twenty years after really following Messiah and seeking YHWH, much of what I once believed has fallen away.  One of the real enigmas in my seeking and unlearning has been the parable of the fig tree as representative of Israel.  An olive tree is more recognized as the representation of Israel, with James even making the point of an absolute difference.  Can the fig tree, my brethren, bear olive berries? either a vine, figs?. . .  James 3:12a

This was about six or seven years ago, in researching the Threshold of Technocracy that I began to question the validity of what I'd been taught about the establishment of Israel.  James makes the point of separating figs from both terms that have been recognized and used to represent G-d's people.  I went back to Genesis 3, and realized fig leaves were mentioned quite early on, as "man's solution."  Adam and Eve used fig leaves to cover shame, as a result of disobedience.   A third temple construction is planned, but according to prophecy, it will be planned by the nations . . . Even if it's done religiously, it's still "man's plan."  The Revelation states the Holy City will be trampled.  The Temple Mount is already under occupation.  I was refused access in 2004 on a Holy Day, at gunpoint.  Obviously, I didn't push the issue, as the Temple Mount is the site of the Al Aqsa Mosque, at this time.  Although Islam shouts about their right to Jerusalem, even in Jerusalem, they face Mecca when they pray . . .

I absolutely believe democratic Israel has a right to exist right where she is, and know this establishment of Israel is a sign of the end of days.  I openly support Israel and greatly admire Benjamin Netanyahu, but I do not believe this is the official return to the land as prophesied.  Since it obviously figures into end time events, I've wondered for these past years, what difference does it make whether G-d brings Israel back to the land supernaturally or uses the UN?  Further end time events make the difference . . .

The World government will have a world religion, and the only place the three Abrahamic religions will truly recognize as the City for this, is Jerusalem.  Catholicism reveres the Vatican, but the Vatican lays claim to a certain authority of Jerusalem as the "voice" of Christianity, and there is a Protestant move back to Catholicism.  Islam is claiming Jerusalem as the capital of Palestine, but their holy city is Mecca.  Democratic Israel has already openly stated both Christianity and Islam are welcome alongside Judaism.

Granted these things will come to pass, but we need to make very sure we know which side of the chasm we are standing when the prophecy is fulfilled.  The remnant will not be approved by the New World Religion and the two witnesses will not speak from the man made temple.  Just as Y'hshuwah was put to death by the government on the say of religious witnesses, the remnant will face the same.  The coming "International Interfaith Temple" will be man's solution . . . the fig tree in leaf.

Matthew 24:32  Now learn a parable of the fig tree; When his branch is yet tender, and putteth forth leaves, ye know that summer is nigh:  So likewise ye, when ye shall see all these things, know that it is near, even at the doors.  Verily I say unto you, This generation shall not pass, till all these things be fulfilled.  Heaven and earth shall pass away, but my words shall not pass away.  But of that day and hour knoweth no man, no, not the angels of heaven, but my Father only.  But as the days of Noe were, so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.

Monday, August 4, 2014

As a Roaring Lion (Part 3)

This will conclude what I was shown regarding the enemy's counterfeit gifts.  The gift of tongues is probably one of the most controversial of the gifts.  It could be, because it's the one most talked about and presumedly demonstrated.  The fact that believers spend an inordinate amount of time talking about tongues is significant in itself.  I do think there are times in which our praise and adoration of Abba leaves our known language in my case, English, but that is usually very private between Abba and I.  "Tongues," as described in the second chapter of Acts was for others to be able to hear the Gospel.  The crowd could hear in their own language, the message of salvation.  What transpired regarding that particular gift as the body of believers expanded across the continent isn't really detailed as far as the gifts in operation until I Corinthians 12.

The book of Acts records several accounts of the other gifts of the Spirit in operation in healing, deliverance, miracles and discernment, but is mute regarding tongues past the second chapter.  I'm curious to know if Paul spoke or penned his letters in the various languages, but we aren't told.  Although several folks bill themselves to be prophets, what most of us see see all these years later, is tongues is the about the only gift currently recognized to be in operation.  This simply ought not to be so.   I've experienced supernatural communication, both in speaking and understanding, when ministering abroad, but only for specific conversations when there was no interpreter.  I know what it is for the spirit to give utterance when I don't know how to pray as I ought, but I was given a message in an unknown tongue here in America, precisely once.  I was a guest speaker in a Pentecostal church, so technically I guess that would be their language.  I'm ashamed to say, when I heard the interpretation, I probably wouldn't have had the nerve to speak that message in English.

Since tongues has become the focus of so many, as a sign of the Holy Spirit, while the Instructions for holiness are mostly ignored, I have to wonder what spirit is actually behind much of what often sounds like gibberish.  I know the gift is real, but I also know it often is not.  If the focus is on the display, rather than the message, it may be the counterfeit roar.

Interpretation of tongues is the last gift of the Spirit listed in I Corinthians 12.  I've seen that come forth on occasion in my travels.  A cab driver or merchant will say something in his native language, and I'll understand it.  I've also seen Abba receive glory when I couldn't make a Greek merchant understand that his clerk had given me too much change.  I wasn't trying to get anyone in trouble, but I had more money in my hand when I left the shop than I went in.  That incident inadvertently turned into several people involved to translate, and many enjoyed the event.  The situation in which I was given the "message in tongues" at the Pentecostal church an interpretation did come forth . . . The individual simply stood and said, "You don't see the gifts because I don't see the fruit."

That interpreted message has stayed with me for years.  Since Abba is no respecter of persons, it is our lack of consecration and obedience that is prohibiting the manifestation of the gifts.  Rather than making disciples, we entertain and make excuses . . . and the counterfeit roar is heard.

Sunday, July 27, 2014

As a Roaring Lion (Part 2)

As we continue down the list, we'll have to admit most of us overuse the term, miracle.  The actual "working of miracles" is done by the power of Ruach HaKodesh and the human used in that, takes no credit for him/herself, nor does he/she charge for his/her time or appearance.  I am YHWH: that is My Name: and My glory will I not give to another . . .  Isaiah 42:8  A doctor that sends you a bill may in fact have made you feel better or removed what he thought made you feel bad, but that's not a miracle.  A traveling ministry show may make all sorts of claims, but when the signs are printed and the time is set, that's placed a man in charge of the show . . . and G-d doesn't have to do command performances.  As a matter of fact, Numbers 14 gives a perfect example of what happens when folks are disobedient, then presumptuous and expect a command performance.
But they presumed to go up unto the hill top: nevertheless the ark of the covenant of YHWH, and Moses, departed not out of the camp.  Then the Amalekites came down, and the Canaanites which dwelt in that hill, and smote them . . . Numbers 14:44,45a
YHWH still does move in miracles and uses His servants in that, but they don't paint signs and buses with their names on them, and they don't sell tickets, and they don't schedule G-d!  Those following the Lion of the Tribe of Judah give all glory to YHWH, not just the lip service of a big show.  The counterfeit lion likes the credit.

As end time prophecy continues to be fulfilled, there are a number of "prophets" appearing everywhere from the local charismatic gathering to social media to elaborate websites.  My eyebrows go a little funny when I see the titles on social media . . . Prophet So and So or Prophetess Such and Such.  I even visited a brick and mortar "place of worship" that actually had a sign showing the prophet's schedule and hours for appointment . . .  Just as in miracle ministries, scheduling a prophecy is really shaky ground.  To use a Biblical term, I'd say "sinking sand" or at least "shifting sand."  Ruach HaKodesh doesn't need to make an appointment with His servants.  His servants avail themselves to Him, at all times.  If you make an appointment specifically for a "prophecy reading" you may be playing with the same counterfeit roar as the psychic network.

I know a little something about discernment, because I asked for this gift.  Before becoming a believer, I took everyone's word for everything, and did not make sound judgments or decisions.  I confessed that to Abba, and asked for the gift of discernment, so I didn't continue in that error.  The first time I saw a spirit, was sadly in my very own home and I really made a mess of that . . . My daughter had just moved out, and I saw it in her room, up by the ceiling fan.  I cast it out of the house . . . unfortunately my husband's dog was outdoors and it entered him.  It was just like in Mark 5!  I felt horrible.  I was young in YHWH and very zealous at the time.  The next one I saw was an horrible little mess, sitting on the preacher's wife's shoulder.  That was when I learned many entertain familiar spirits and have no desire to be delivered.  The immature zealotry has given way to bold maturity and wisdom has been graciously gifted to operated in tandem with discernment.  Gifts of the spirit really do lead in opposition from the works of the flesh.  If you think your natural talents are the same thing as the gift of the Spirit, you may be hearing the counterfeit roar.

Next week, I'll share what I've been shown about tongues and the interpretation.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

As A Roaring Lion (Part 1)

I saw something in the spirit early this morning, and I have to share it.  I don't speak of the enemy very often, but when I was shown this, I was instructed to share it.

Most of us are familiar with the reference to the enemy as a lion, in I Peter 5:8  Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: There are many teachings about the devil that use this particular passage, that I believe actually appear to elevate the power of the enemy.  We need to always remember, never forget, the enemy was defeated at Calvary, and the defeat was declared at that empty tomb!  He's still more than willing to wreak havoc in the lives of believers, but his roar is nothing more than making noise.  He doesn't really have to focus too much on the heathen nations, the flesh is more than willing to make a mess and promote it.  I'm not going to address the works of the flesh in this article, but suffice it to say, the list in Galatians 5, is lengthy, and is not the work of the enemy, but the unrighteous will of humanity.  Back to the subject of this as a roaring lion.

We know that Messiah is mentioned in Scripture as the Lion of the Tribe of Judah.  We also know the enemy is not creative, but rather counterfeits, so . . . let's consider where the adversary can truly do the most damage, because that is his goal.  The enemy knows he has already lost, he's just seeking to cause casualties, now.  The enemy is not omnipresent, nor is he omniscient.  The greatest damage the enemy can do, is come along side the truth of a relationship with Messiah, with an imitation religion.  One that uses most of the same words; while lacking the Instruction and power.  Again, the enemy just makes noise . . .

As well as works of the flesh, we know there are spirits of evil in this world.  The most damage that can be done spiritually is by evil counterfeiting the Ruach HaKodesh [Holy Spirit].  Surrendering to the counterfeit spirits would result in many being spiritually devoured.  We've seen it with false teachers and showmanship evangelism.  This morning Abba showed me, the counterfeits for the gifts of the Spirit, and told me how we've missed recognizing the difference by claiming different interpretations rather than understanding different administrations of the same Spirit, or discerning different counterfeiting spirits.  He just showed me right in order, how the gifts of the Spirit are counterfeited by the adversary.

Formal education and experience are often mistaken for wisdom.  Education in and of itself is not evil, we should never stop learning, but education and wisdom are not the same thing, especially when it comes to spiritual matters.  Wisdom is not the result of experience, either; although we'd be wise to learn from our experiences. Wisdom and maturity do seem often to be hand in hand.  True spiritual wisdom cannot be taught, but only received by the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.  Spiritual wisdom is not taught in seminary.  The gift of wisdom reaches far beyond religious matters, into insight in practical matters; as was the case when King Solomon determined who was the real mother.  Wisdom didn't come with the throne.  The circumstances of growing up a prince gives every indication Solomon would have had the best education available, yet he asked for wisdom.  A sure sign of the counterfeit roaring lion is "being filled with teachings of tradition and wise in our own eyes."

Much knowledge can be gained through gathering information, but the gift of knowledge through the Ruach HaKodesh is heart knowledge beyond head knowledge.  I, personally experienced the understanding of this when I received the Holy Spirit.  I'm an information sponge of sorts, and had certainly attempted to gain respectability through knowledge.  When YHWH clearly asked me if I was ready to lay down everything I thought I knew, I had no idea what would transpire . . . I retained Scripture I had memorized, spiritual truths I'd learned, but the teachings of tradition began falling away.   It seemed much of the information I had once valued as pertinent, had no place in my heart.   One of the surest signs of the counterfeit roar is clinging to the traditions of man to replace, thus reject Torah.  The Lion of the Tribe of Judah is Torah in the flesh.    And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.  Matthew 7:23   The word "iniquity" is translated from the Greek word, anomia; meaning: without the law.

The definition of faith has really been run through the wringer and hung out to dry!  I'm amazed at the number of those who claim Bible belief, seem to feel G-d doesn't operate the way He used to, although the Bible says He changes NOT!   It runs the full gambit . . . We seek the wisdom of man for our problems and don't recognize the signs of warning and judgment, all while claiming faith in G-d.  In the past twenty years, faith has really seemed interchangeable with presumption and demand.  The prosperity teaching which is nothing more than a false teaching to "sanctify the love of money" has led the way in presumptuous churchianity.  I still remember the horrible shudder I felt when I heard someone "praying" and telling G-d what He had to do, as they used Scripture out of context.  The sheer arrogance of that prayer, really scared me.  I've said for years that the national economy tanking, is judgment for the "name it and claim it" prosperity teaching.  While the "blab it and grab it" crowd speaks their version of "righteous judgment" over this generation of instant gratification, the adversary has roared and is devouring his prey.

In trusting our health to the wisdom of humanity, we have come to a very dangerous place.  Faith in G-d as our healer has actually been prosecuted as criminal negligence and health insurance is now mandatory.  Meanwhile, more children die every year from medical errors than have died in twenty years from non-medical treatment based upon faith.  The Creator of the universe, Who also created our bodies . . . stated unequivocally in Exodus 15:26 And said, If thou wilt diligently hearken to the voice of YHWH thy G-d, and wilt do that which is right in His sight, and wilt give ear to His commandments, and keep all His statutes, I will put none of these diseases upon thee, which I have brought upon the Egyptians: for I am YHWH that heals thee.

There's a reason we are warned against the use of pharmaceuticals in the Revelation, even if we don't have the wisdom to fully understand it. James gave instruction for wisdom and healing.  If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of G-d, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.  James 1:5
Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord:  And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.  Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.  James 5:14-16
Defining righteousness without Torah is self-righteousness, which is not at all, righteous.  Again the work of the counterfeit lion.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Plurality in Hebrew?

Some may find this article to be controversial, but for me, it addresses and explains an issue that most of us are afraid to touch in any depth.  Walking away from the teaching of Trinity was the scariest thing I've done in my life, as a believer.  I tried to embrace the Tri-une teaching for a time, but Tri-une is really just another word for Trinity, so I abandoned that, as well.  It doesn't require a great knowledge of Hebrew to read the first line of Scripture in Genesis and see the two letters that weren't translated to English.

 Upon reading Revelation 3, verse 14, which I believe is a timely message to the current church in America, I saw Messiah's reference to Himself.  In addressing John, he refers to himself as the beginning of creation.  And unto the angel of the church of the Laodiceans write; These things saith the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the beginning of the creation of Elohim;  

I was sharing and chatting with a sibling in Messiah when this awareness hit like a ton of bricks.  So many years ago, I remember the teaching that the Revelation would connect us back to Genesis . . . The new earth would be the original plan . . . sinless.  In the translation from Hebrew to English, two letters of the first line of Hebrew Scriptures were not included.  In the beginning Elohim spoke [aleph tav] . . .  The Revelation, in the first chapter states, that Messiah revealed Himself to John, stating He was [aleph tav] which is translated in Greek, Alpha and Omega, in English A-Z.  The verse goes on to use the translated term "Almighty," but the Greek term is nothing like the Hebrew term, Shaddai.

The first line of Genesis begins the assumption that Elohim indicates a plurality or co-existence before The Word is spoken.  That is what I'd like to briefly address in this article.  The 'im" added to a word often indicates plural, such as Talmidim [disciples], Cohenim [priests], and goyim [nations].
I have no doubt that Y'hshuwah is the Son of YHWH, and not to limit Elohim, but fathers and sons are not contemporaries.  Although one is not a father until they have a child, the one who is the father exists before the son.

The three words mentioned previously are examples of the plural in Hebrew.  Talmidim are followers of Messiah, people living the example of Messiah in relationship to Him . . . Cohen is a singular title, Cohenim is the title for the collective group of priests performing a specific service . . . Goyim is the collective presence of unbelievers and unbelieving cultures/nations . . . all, by definition, plural.

The "im" in some words of Hebrew are more than plural, they are all encompassing and fluid.  Mayim is water and chayim is living . . . indicating "im" is more fluid and encompassing than simple plurality.
The ocean is filled with water, yet one can hold a glass of water, same word in Hebrew.  By that same token, one cannot simply hold water without a glass.  Chai is translated life, but chayim is living, which obviously cannot be locked into a single frame of time.  Sometimes the "im" in Hebrew indicates existing, encompassing, solitary yet expansive, active . . . Elohim can be on the mercy seat in heaven, yet in the spirit of every believer.  Echad, one; yet omnipresent.

We certainly cannot put G-d in a container like water in a glass, but I truly do believe Messiah had a beginning.  I believe He was the first Word spoken by our Creator, before anything else was created and I believe He was the existing Son of YHWH long before He was a babe in Bethlehem.  I believe He is the light of the world.  Light was spoken on the first day, sun and moon, day 4.  The Revelation 22 tells us there will be no night and no need of candle, because we will have the Light of YHWH.  I don't have to believe in the Roman Catholic Trinity to follow the Son of Elohim and to call the Creator of the universe, Abba.

Here is a link that breaks down the teaching in a similar concept.

Sunday, July 6, 2014

Unrighteous History ?

WARNING:  Contains Controversial Information

I realize this is not necessarily a shared view by many, but in light of so many sensing something truly ominous heading our way as a nation, and since this last week, freedom and independence were celebrated; I'd like to offer briefly, American history including a Scriptural perspective.

I'll begin with my ancestors, since we made the first mistake in American history, and no the first mistake was not in feeding six starving Europeans that were afraid to get off their ship.  The first mistake of Native Americans was to give up their long standing belief that the land belonged to our Creator.  The land shall not be sold for ever: for the land is Mine; for ye are strangers and sojourners with Me.  Leviticus 25:23  I've heard fellow Native Americans say, 'they gave us Bibles and stole our land,' but that's not entirely true.  Although there was much bloodshed through the nation heading west, those first land transactions were basically negotiated, business deals.  They were however; business deals my people had no business making, but they yielded to the temptation of instant gratification of firewater and wampum.

Moving into the late 18th century, we find the Revolutionary War.  The term "Creator" is mentioned in the Declaration of Independence and in another source, you'll also find that Romans 13:1-2 was already written at the time.  Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers. For there is no power but of God: the powers that be are ordained of God.  Whosoever therefore resisteth the power, resisteth the ordinance of God: and they that resist shall receive to themselves damnation.  Considering we have nearly broken our arms patting ourselves on the back in regard to American pride, the Revolutionary War started over taxation, not religious freedom.  And the guys as the Boston Tea Party weren't bold enough to actually stand their ground in protest, they dressed up as Native Americans.  The French and the Native Americans actually came to the assistance of the Revolutionaries.  The large green lady in the harbor came from France.

Although the European descendants were thrilled with their freedom from the King and had penned "all men are created equal," it turns out some men are more "equal" than others.  This new "real estate across the pond" was really big and required a lot of land management to attain aristocratic status of "Land Baron," so clearly someone had to actually do the work . . . Although we like to retell the history of self starters and hard workers, we tend to omit that much of this land was worked, this nation built, and expanded on the backs of slaves and the blood of the Native people.  This situation was politically resolved by the Civil War, but continues to be a political hot button topic called "racism."

Fast-forwarding to the early 20th century,  1929 to be exact, America was already loving the money!  When the Stock Market crashed, we didn't repent, we dropped the standard . . . the gold standard.  Rather than repenting and believing for the rain to fall, many headed to town for the Government Work Program.  By the late thirties, Hitler was terrorizing Europe and America refused to get involved, even refusing to admit over 900 Jewish refugees in 1939.  We were busy making classic movies that year . . .

Since I learned this history in another country that was not claiming heroism, I believe the following to be true.  America got involved in WWII after Japan attacked us and all of our allies couldn't help us, as they were already busy in Europe fighting Nazis.  By the end of WW II, twenty million Russians had already died, 13 million died in concentration camps; which included 6 million Jews, millions of Sabbath keeping Christians as well as Christians who were caught protecting Jews, gays and gypsies.  The invasion of Normandy was led by Canada, followed by Britain after being under siege for 5 years, and American troops.

Once the war was over, America embraced the opportunity to be the "World's Super Power."  We had the atomic bomb, we came into WWII late, so we still had some national energy with no rebuilding necessary as Hawaii wasn't yet a state, and by the 50's everyone could save up a down payment for debt called a mortgage.  The American autobahn [interstate federal highways] was begun, medical dependency exploded, and McCarthyism grabbed the national focus.  Hitler used the exact same tactics in Germany in the late 20's and early 30's.  Meanwhile in the 50's "porn was born."

The idea that a Christian Nation could be taken down by a single atheist to get prayer out of school is completely illogical.  This ruling in 1962 actually revealed the spiritual impotence that already existed in this nation.  Church was a weekend hour activity and those who attended synagogue were not included in the "Christian Nation" mentality except to offer great savings for Christmas gifts.

I'm not saying there are not genuine believers and servants of the Most High G-d of Israel in this nation, I'm simply stating the idea of a Christian Nation is merely ideology.  Repeating the ideology is not going to make it reality.  Implementing the ideology individually is what makes it a reality.  Simply stated, anyone who claims to be a follower of Messiah, one who claims to truly believe the Good News should live as He lived.  We don't have to change laws, we have to live by the HIgher Ones already written.  That's what Messiah did.

Y'hshuwah Messiah clearly stated, He had not come to abolish Torah.  Paul wrote that he continued to believe Torah and the Prophets, and continued to observe the Feast Days.  A New Testament only interpretation of Paul's writings may be exactly what founded this nation to head the direction in which it's arrived!  When the teaching of only half of Deuteronomy 28:13 went through Christianity, the impending fall of America was official.  When the teaching stopped at the semi-colon, judgment was sure to follow.
And YHWH shall make thee the head, and not the tail; and thou shalt be above only, and thou shalt not be beneath; if that thou hearken unto the commandments of YHWH thy G-d, which I command thee this day, to observe and to do them:    

The rest of the chapter clearly explains America's problems today, and it is lengthy . . . 28:15 But it shall come to pass, if thou wilt not hearken unto the voice of YHWH thy G-d, to observe to do all his commandments and his statutes which I command thee this day; that all these curses shall come upon thee, and overtake thee:

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Nothing New Under the Sun

The writer of Ecclesiastes made a very powerful statement, inspired actually, when he penned, Ecclesiastes 1:9  The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.  We can read since the beginning of recorded history, people have done what they want and tried to justify it.  If push comes to shove, and they get called out on it, as was the case for Adam and Eve, there's blame.  Blame is nothing more than denial of personal responsibility!  As we sit here watching our society crumble, who is responsible?  Blaming Washington DC obviously doesn't change life on a personal level.  Electing different representatives has not changed the course of this nation.

Sadly, it isn't just a political problem.  The big name preachers don't address sin.  Joel Osteen has been more verbal about his "stand of silence" regarding sin, but it's actually been going on my entire life.  I attended a Billy Graham "crusade," back in the 60's, and I don't like the word "crusade" used in conjunction with a religious event.  I think I was 9 at the time, so nobody asked my opinion . . .  Anyway, I remember the generalized message of "being born again," without reference to actual sin, other than "all have sinned."  I remember the "emotional charge" in the stadium.  Yes indeed we have all sinned, and one of the major sins most of are guilty of, is soft soaping the truth and/or pointing out the sin of others.

Years later, when that same organization was coming to a town in which I was a minister, I was asked to counsel those who came forward.  I was given the instructions of what to say, and what to do, and I simply stated, I can't in good conscience participate.  I could not take their name, for a mailing list, give them their "born again birthday" and send them back from where they had come.  It was specifically scripted and that was just not something I could do.  Since Franklin has taken the helm, he does seem much more vocal on social matters from a Scriptural perspective than his dad was.  I've also noticed Franklin isn't asked to speak as much as his father was.  Back to nothing new under the sun.  

Our society has openly rejected the Bible as a moral compass, much less the Word of the Almighty Creator, while religious leaders choose their words carefully, so as not to offend their supporters.  As a child I asked questions that were not answered, at the time.  As a child, I asked who changed G-d's day off?  Nobody told me the Pope did.  Later as a young teen I sat listening to very sordid details through a "prayer request" and asked later, "What's the difference between a prayer request and gossip?"  That continues to be a question . . . I ask myself regularly.   I give great consideration in sharing testimonies as well.  We've all heard at least one testimony in which the drama of the sin receives more focus, than Abba being glorified.  There's a great deal of victimization in testimonies as well, and "victory" is often measured by worldly standards.  

Once the "victory" is measured in worldly standards, tickling the itching ears usually follows, and that should not be.  

Life isn't about what we acquire and amass, or status we attain.  The true Good News of the Gospel must address sin, because salvation involves repentance.  To omit G-d's definition of sin as well as His expectations; is abject disrespect and displays a total disregard of the price Y'hshuwah paid to bring redemption.  The fact of the matter is stated in the last two verses of the same book quoted in the beginning of this article.
Ecclesiastes 12:13-14  Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear G-d, and keep His commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.  For G-d shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.

Sunday, June 22, 2014

The Foundation for Unity

Last week, we welcomed a new contributor to the Goshen Gazette in an article entitled, "Everything I Learned About Unity, I Learned From Pagans."  That article really got me thinking.  Of course, the festivals around the Middle Ages and Renaissance are truthfully thematic in content, away from our Creator, but the point was their unity in a common interest.  I then thought of the "grass roots" movements of the past few years, The Tea Party and the Occupy Movement.  Both claim to be comprised of many people from different walks of life, with a common purpose.  The Tea Party is obviously political, and the Occupy Movement is anti-Wall Street.  As I considered these three organized gatherings that inspire unity, a revelation occurred to me about the lack of unity amongst the people of G-d.  A light came on.  Perhaps this isn't news to many, but it was to me.

When G-d's people walk in unity, matters of eternal value transpire.

These other organizations and gatherings don't have any spiritual opposition!  There's no need for spiritual opposition, as there is no eternal value in the purpose.  I'm not suggesting those gatherings are evil, I'm just saying, the focus and purpose of these organizations are irrelevant in regard to eternity.

Sadly, however; the people of G-d have trouble with unity, because we allow so many divisive details to become priorities, and that has to change.  I've been given just a glimpse of what real unity is, and the three of us are nowhere close geographically, but this week, I had a taste, just a taste, of what YHWH has in mind, and it is good!  Psalms 34:8  O taste and see that YHWH is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in Him.

I don't think the individuals will mind me using their names.  If next week's edition is shorter, you'll know they did.  (smile)  I shared with Beth this week, that not only is the round table ready for the five fold ministry, I now have five desks.  Each minister could have their own space to prepare their own projects.  That was the second click.  My light coming on this week, was sort of like a three way bulb, with every click of the switch, the light intensified.  In the conversation, she mentioned she had a myriad of office chairs . . . That's not to say, she and I are going to land in the same geographical location, but we could . . . The point being we were each offering what we had, for the general purpose, and the bigger point was, it wasn't the same thing.  The people of G-d seem to get bogged down in thinking unity has to be uniformity!  As our conversation continued, other things came up and we both voiced how much appreciation we have for the gifts and talents of others that we don't have.  Unity involves appreciation, rather than competition.  I realize tables and desks may not sound like a big deal, but I've been praying for five fold ministries to gather for several years now, and I believe they are beginning to do just that in many places.  A table and desk is part of the works of expressing my faith.  I don't want tables and desks to fall like manna!

The next click occurred when Gerry went storm chasing.  I always pray for him when he does this, but this time I prayed that he would clearly hear G-d.  I remember how I used to talk and listen for Abba when I drove regularly . . . not storm chasing, I assure you!  When he posted hearing, it clicked that (A) Abba had answered a prayer and (B) that prayer had been prayed in agreement, unbeknownst to both of us, at the time.

Just as with Beth, there was a "second witness" as Gerry wrote of his interests, I was reminded that YHWH puts the talents and interests in His people to be used by Him when He is first priority.  Matthew 6:33  But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.  When I saw that Gerry had written about his love of photographing storms, I realized immediately, many of us are interested in weather, but not everyone has been given the talent to capture in a photograph, the majesty of our Creator, and not too many weather men can explain the science of weather from a Biblical perspective.

So, with all that enlightenment, I was here at the homestead killing dust bunnies.  I realized in my life, I was so focused on preparing for the bigger vision, I was allowing the immediate path to be cluttered, not with priorities, but non-priorities.  Rather than one priority, like Gerry was dealing with, I had eleventy-seven little bits of nonsense and non-priorities taking up space . . . The realization hit me like a ton of bricks.  When the five fold ministries gather, the mundane will still be necessary.  Dusting will still be important.  When the real gathering to work together happens, "communities" will be dwelling together.  We will no longer be in the formal living room where nothing goes on . . .

A Song of degrees of David.  Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity!
The second chapter of Acts is exciting and of course I want to participate in a move of YHWH like that, but Acts 2 didn't happen until Acts 1 had taken place.  Unity isn't about all of us doing the same thing, and unity certainly isn't about gathering all the people who share the same gifts and strengths.  Unity certainly isn't about focusing on unity . . . Unity is about a group of individuals who want to be close and obedient to YHWH and bear witness of Y'hshuwah, who encourage each other and pray for each other, and are willing to share freely what they've been freely given.  Unity will take place when G-d's people make His presence in every aspect of our life, our first priority.
And when the day of Pentecost was fully come, they were all with one accord in one place.  Acts 2:1

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Touchy Subject

I realize many truly believe that our Creator uses modern medicine in healing.  To each his own on that . . . For some reason "doing what is right in our own eyes" and "following our heart:" modern medicine is rarely scrutinized as compromised faith.  "Come out from among them and be separate" is rarely applied to standing in full faith, without the wisdom of man, in regard to healing.

We are all given a measure of faith, so regardless of where you stand, be aware of some facts.  First and foremost our walk has to match our talk, spiritually speaking.  If you believe Adonai uses medicine in healing, then don't preach against it, but don't try to talk someone else out of their faith.  If you believe you are called to stand in full faith without medical intervention, then don't waiver and I'd recommend not "looking for evil,"  which is  . . . tests.

The simple fact of the matter is, modern medicine has the judicial power to supercede a person's choices at any point it is determined to be in a "person's best interests or that of a child" to take away their right to choose.  I've seen so many people say they are trusting YHWH Raphah and only using His created remedies, only to have tests run that will result in medical intervention.  Immediately then, the staunch conviction is questioned and often they submit to the compromise calling it the Will of the Father.

Somewhere in our fairly recent history, hospitals stopped being a place of care and recovery and became a place of a very short term stay for major invasive procedures, not to mention the dispensary for Big Pharma.  Recently, I was absolutely shocked when someone had surgery, then wasn't responding as the doctor's had predicted.  That wasn't the shocking part, as doctors are obviously fallible.   What transpired next, I found to be shocking.  In a matter of less than a week, this individual was actually transported FROM the hospital by ambulance!  Let that sink in for just a moment . . .

Obamacare as the Affordable Care Act is termed, may be the very thing that causes all of us to question where our faith actually lies.  If we are determined to place our faith in our Creator and His remedies, but we then decide we need to know what G-d knows, the ones performing the tests and reading the results may determine they know more than any of us.  If you are determined to stand on your faith, be assured we are here to offer encouragement and stand in agreement with you in prayer.

 And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and YHWH shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.  - James the brother of Messiah

Monday, June 9, 2014

Sin is Still Sin

Since the Creator of the universe changes not, that means His standards remain the same, and that also means His definition of sin has not changed.  Scripture is quite clear about how we are to conduct our relationships and control our sexuality.  I haven't committed all the sexual sins mentioned in Scripture, but I have surpassed the woman at the well in husbands.  We are also told, if we are guilty of one, we are guilty of them all.  That isn't license to go ahead and continue sinning!

I've been very disturbed by the number of synagogues and churches that are dropping the standard of open sexual sin.  There is a dangerous trend that is really leading many away from repentance, altogether.  So, although I haven't committed all the sexual sins mentioned in Scripture, I've committed enough of them to tell you, sexual sin "breeds" problems and bears consequences.  Social and religious compromise and acceptance won't bring positive change to society or religion.  Quite the contrary.  Most sexual sin was kept secret or "in the closet" because of shame.  It's normal to be ashamed of sin.  Actually, to be ashamed of sin, is the only way a person will repent.

As a child, I thought marriage looked pretty miserable.  So as an adult, I made sure there was an available exit, at the first sign of trouble.  I actually rationalized that a divorce was not "trapping" a man.  He was free to move on and so was I.  The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?  Jeremiah 17:9  I wasn't unfaithful in my marriages, but making vows with a possible exit strategy is not faithfulness.  I had commitment issues, and although psychology makes it sound palatable, maybe even provides a thin veil of victimhood, it was sin, plain and simple.  Romans tells us the wages of sin is death, and I can testify that the consequences of sin are not pretty.  Our society speaks of men having commitment issues, but I've never met a man with more commitment issues than I've demonstrated.

Point being, whether it's breaking the marriage covenant, cohabitating, homosexuality, cross dressing, or any other behavior forbidden in Scripture, it's sin and sin is a choice.  Justifying and rationalizing sinful choices deteriorates a society.  To say we're born a certain way or even conditioned in a way, often referred to as generational curses, is no excuse.  Behavior is a choice and we are all born into sin . . .  As we continue to socially rationalize sinful behavior, our society continues to reflect the choices each generation has made.
 Just as there should be no parade celebrating adultery, multiple divorces, or cohabitation, there should be no gay pride parade, either.  Truth be told, I wouldn't be interested in a silver or golden heterosexual anniversary parade, either.  But then, those who celebrate silver and golden heterosexual anniversaries usually share a life and a legacy that reflects more than any mere parade could acknowledge.  Sexuality has no place in parades, theme parks, or political agendas.  Surely everyone has more to offer society than their sexual preference.

Sadly, there are now generations who have been encouraged to be self-focused and self-satisfying, and introduced to sexuality when they are entirely too young, with complete disregard of the standard of our Creator.  Far beyond sad, even to the point of despicable is the fact that our society now actually exalts behavior that is in abject rebellion to the standard of our Creator.  

He that trusteth in his own heart is a fool . . . Proverbs 28:26a

Sunday, June 1, 2014

What If?

I've been pondering a question for a decade now, and to be honest, I've been hesitant to actually share it, in concern of causing division.  All things considered, there are already plenty of topics doing just that, so I'm jumping on out with this.  Since Scripture doesn't tell us when Messiah was born, the conjecture lingers, still.  Most Bible scholars do concur that he was not born in December, and I would agree.  Of course, very few let that information stop them from the traditional "Christian" rituals of Christmas.

The rainy season in Israel, is basically between October and May, with some areas actually receiving snow, while other regions are arid.  Keep in mind, the arid regions indicate desert and would not be grazing land for the shepherds to be out with their flocks by night . . .  For years I maintained the "school of thought" that Messiah was born through Sukkot, some say the first day, circumcised on the last, but in the past couple of years, a fact lept off the page in Luke 2.  There was no room in the inn . . . Sukkot is camping week!  That should have been the week of empty inns.  Through Sukkot, there should have been a VACANCY Sign in every window of every Inn in Israel!

As I said, Scripture doesn't tell us, but I do have a personal experience that did plant the seed for this thought.  Ten years ago, I celebrated Shavu'ot at the King David Hotel in Jerusalem.  The trip had been booked for a few months, and the reservations were made at that time.  When I arrived to check in, the man at the desk stated simply, "there's no room for you . . . "  I replied that I had made reservations in February, to which he replied, yes, I remember your name, and the other day, the reservation was cancelled.

Since I'd been traveling in Europe before reaching Israel, I asked him if he had any details as to the cancellation.  He smiled and said, "I do have a room, but it's many flights up from what was originally reserved."  With that, I immediately thought, 'HalleluYah!  An upper room for Shavu'ot!'  Wow!  I'd asked YHWH early in my service to Him if I could walk out the book of Acts, then before the trip, that had crossed my mind once again.  Looks like I was off to a great start!  The hotel was packed.  Every mayor of Israel was in the King David Hotel for Shavu'ot and I was blessed to be in an "upper room."  I could literally look over the city of Jerusalem from the balcony.

I've since heard and considered that Messiah may have been born at Passover, or week of Unleavened Bread.  I have no spiritual insight against that theory, but I do have practical knowledge that might offer a question to that timing.  Passover is in the early spring and that is also included in the rainy season as well as being the birthing season for livestock.  I have discovered through my homesteading years, that sheep will "drop" their offspring anywhere, in any weather.  They aren't bad mothers, but they don't seek shelter or safety in birthing their young.  The scent of blood in birthing and the passing of the placenta, not to mention the wandering curious newborns in an open field will certainly draw predators who are also trying to feed their young.  Out in the field by night, seems like an opportunity for the entire flock and shepherd to be preyed upon.  I've learned that it's safest to have the herd enclosed when the birthing time is imminent, then the young can be accounted for and the placentas can be disposed of, away from the herd.  Again, this is not doctrine, only experience . . .

  We read the book of Ruth, annually, in observance of Shavu'ot.  The book of Ruth is all about making a decision to seek the G-d of Israel, and of course points to the kinsman redeemer, who is a prototype of Messiah.  I do know for a fact, the Inns are full in Jerusalem, for Shavu'ot, and the days following the wheat harvest would be a great time to collect a tax!  The wheat harvest is when everything is growing in abundance, but after the initial harvest, a laid back season for growth.

Since the Torah was given to Moses at what was later to be known as Shavu'ot and the Holy Spirit was given on Shavu'ot, to write the Torah on our hearts; as well as provide the power to live Torah . . . Is it possible that the Messiah, who is Torah in the flesh, could have been born [given] on Shavu'ot?

Here is a link to check out the weather in Israel.

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Attack of the Adversary

I've pondered for years the number of reports I hear of "under enemy attack."  To be honest, that always causes me to cringe just a bit.  I'm not suggesting for a moment that there isn't an adversary,and I do believe there are demonic spirits, but realistically, I don't believe they usually come in on attack mode.  Scripture indicates the presence of evil approaches in an enticing manner.  Most believers, even many unbelievers have an aversion to out and out evil.  As a young woman not following Messiah, I knew I wanted no part in the "drug party world" of the seventies.  I cannot say it was a completely moral decision, other than to say, I knew I didn't belong there.  Now, on the other hand, if someone made me feel loved and needed, I'd run headlong into that compromise and captivity.

When I became a believer, "the attacks" if you will seemed to not be temptations for what religion and society calls evil, but rather what is deemed "good and right" in our own eyes.  Invariably, when YHWH was opening a door or expanding this ministry, a side tracking "need" would make itself known.  The biggest struggle in my life is, following Messiah in YHWH's plan for me while dealing with personal relationships.  I desperately wanted to succeed at being a respected member of a family,and that's where the temptation entered, and the failure followed!

It's taken me several years to fully understand why Abraham was called away from family and Paul said it was better to remain single!  I've made peace with the fact I'm called an outcast.  For I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds, says YHWH; because they called thee an Outcast . . .  Jeremiah 30:17

Keep in mind, our Creator has a plan for each of our lives, while the adversary is not creative.  The adversary has one "wish" for all of us . . . confused bondage.  It is we ourselves who make our weaknesses known.  I was finishing up the remodeling of the mission building when I received the call that a grandchild was on the way.  Remember to be "loved and needed" is my weakness . . . Sadly, that weakness turns into "just needed" which often translates into "used," so many times.  Anyway, the cost of my commitment continued to increase.  With twins on the way and a failed relationship, I gained what was supposed to be a situation in which expenses would be shared to providing for someone who simply reneged and opted for guest status . . . for several months.

There is the one other weapon in the adversary's arsenal that works well on me.  Once I settle for being needed, guilt and obligation become the fetters that hold me . . . or I should say, held me. Since becoming a believer, my mother has always served as what I call negative confirmation.  She's very religious and "knows" what everyone should do.  She's even stated the world would be a better place if everyone thought like she does . . . When she said G-d wanted me to lay down my ministry to take care of grandchildren, I recognized the tone.  I knew better and so I maintained all my commitments to community chaplain services, the neighborhood kids for weekend meal and Bible lesson, and caring for grandbabies!

When my health finally did cave in, there was no support from family.  YHWH did deliver me, however; and raise me back up!  I'm so thankful I didn't succumb to the advice from my own mother, to rebel against YHWH!   There have now been several other situations, in which I clearly heard YHWH, stood my ground, offered limited assistance and when the end came, grieved, but received such relief and shalom in the acceptance.    

I do truly appreciate the fact that the adversary is not creative.  When the same basic premise was attempted once again, after I wrote, "Can We All Be Wrong?"  I recognized the MO and was again, given the power to stand firm, while still hoping.  This time the hope wasn't for my success, however; it was for slavation and genuine repentance for the seekers.  It wasn't long before I heard a very clear word from YHWH.   We are not spiritually bound to social obligations, when covenants are broken.  The "enemy" is not omnipotent, nor is he omnipresent.  It seems often, he receives entirely too much credit for his limited power and our weakness in the flesh.  My desire for success and focus in a specific area made me my own worst enemy!

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Betrayal, Gossip, Lashon Hara, or Truth?

This article may be better placed elsewhere, but on the other hand, asking questions does seem to be religiously incorrect . . . Seems we all have our minds made up about certain things, and there are definitely some things of which we must be sure, but this one, I am not.  Most spiritual matters do seem black and white, but considering the changing tide these past few weeks, I'm searching for discovery in whether or not this matter does in fact include some gray area.

To break a confidence absolutely can be a betrayal.  Most of the people I speak with are very careful in what they repeat regarding the business of others, and I appreciate and admire their integrity.  I also realize there are times in which a person may convey an indirect "need for help" and one must truly weigh out the matter to determine if speaking to another may be the help that is needed.  That is when discernment is parmount.

I'm not one to repeat the business of others, as a rule.  When someone confides in me, I believe it was for me to pray and to offer what help I can, personally.  As for my own personal business, I've never felt very comfortable confiding in anyone.  There are people I've tried to trust and they have made me sorry, every time!  I do actually have three family members that I "confide in" when I need the news to get spread quickly and do not wish to have individual personal conversations on the subject.  In typing this, I now wonder if I'm causing these gossips to stumble . . . Although, it is an efficient method.  The subject matter at hand, however; is much more serious than someone knowing my personal business.

The great falling away, prophesied in Scripture is becoming apparent and as the news of these folks turning their back on Y'hshuwah Messiah, ripples through social media, many are hesitant to name names.  I think I'm leaning toward naming names.  This is a serious matter of everlasting consequence.  I've been praying and seeking for a few weeks now, and this came to me this week, and is certainly confirmed in Scripture.  Moses and Paul named names.  Y'hshuwah Messiah gave clear indication at the Passover seder, who would betray him, and John the Baptist addressed a certain religious group as vipers.

And YHWH spake unto Moses, saying, Speak unto the congregation, saying, Get you up from about the tabernacle of Korah, Dathan, and Abiram. And Moses rose up and went unto Dathan and Abiram; and the elders of Israel followed him.  And he spake unto the congregation, saying, Depart, I pray you, from the tents of these wicked men, and touch nothing of theirs, lest ye be consumed in all their sins.  Numbers 16:23-26

For Demas hath forsaken me, having loved this present world, and is departed unto Thessalonica . . . Alexander the coppersmith did me much evil: the Lord reward him according to his works:  Of whom be thou ware also; for he hath greatly withstood our words. II Timothy 4:10a, 14-15 

To warn others about false teachers, anti-Messiah missionaries, or untrustworthy politicians, I do not believe is gossip or lashon hara.  I'm not talking about differences of understanding on non-salvation issues, in the body; I'm talking about motivational speakers masquerading as ministers, and anti-Messiah missionaries posing as confused seekers.  Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;  II Thessalonians 2:3

As for untrustworthy politicians, I'm beginning to think 'untrustworthy' and 'politician' are just interchangeable terms!  If a ruler hearken to lies, all his servants are wicked.  Proverbs 29:12

I do have or I should say did have "friends" on social media who have publicly stated they have stopped believing Y'hshuwah is Messiah.  My first thought toward them, was they had only "tasted of religion or an experience" and couldn't have truly met Messiah.  Hebrews 6:4-6 indicates it is possible to choose wrongly after experiencing the goodness of YHWH in Messiah.  For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, And have tasted the good word of G-d, and the powers of the world to come, If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of G-d afresh, and put him to an open shame.  The interactions and communication reduce rapidly with those who have claimed to walk with Messiah and now openly deny Him.   Once the statement of denial is made, they seem to demonstrate a completely different style of socializing.  Knowing they are campaigning for the enemy, now, I do try to avail myself to any and all who have witnessed this display of denial, but are genuinely seeking.

If anyone has a question about some of the doctrines or teachings of the "mind-changers" please do not hesitate to ask.  If I have any public information, I will share what I know.  Even amongst the devout, truth, is sometimes mislabeled as gossip or lashon hara.  This is a matter of eternal consequence.  Both political parties are moving toward the NWO.  Our military and law enforcement 'work' for the powers that be, and the great falling away has begun!  
Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of G-d: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.  Hereby know ye the Spirit of G-d: Every spirit that confesseth that Y'hshuwah Messiah is come in the flesh is of G-d:  And every spirit that confesseth not that Y'hshuwah Messiah is come in the flesh is not of G-d: and this is that spirit of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world.  I John 4:1-3

Sunday, May 11, 2014

The Bridegroom

In witnessing the great falling away, prophesied by Paul in II Thessalonians 2, I see the chasm widening of what once was simply a line in the sand.  There is no gray area in this matter.  This great falling away that Paul warned about is happening in several ways, and has been for years.  The first great falling away was official under Constantine's rule.  Obviously much was being lost after the first century believers, but by the fourth century AD, lawlessness was made law!  It began with separating Sabbath from the new first day of rest to politically appease the pagans of Rome.   It was through this time that other religions also sprang up and have continued.  Islam began in the 7th century.  These Torah-less religious paths continued for nearly a millennium through the Dark Ages into the renaissance, with humanity doing what was right in their own eyes, while the pope told the illiterate masses what they should believe.  Witchcraft and sorcery gained a resurgence through the renaissance period.

When Martin Luther translated Scripture into the language of the common man, there was still a great deal of illiteracy, as well as his own anti-Semitism.  So the Protestant reformation really didn't protest the lawlessness of the Roman Catholic church.  The protestant movement basically protested against the Pope and established their own doctrines of what was right in their own eyes.  There is little Biblical difference between Catholicism and the Lutheran denomination which is named for Martin Luther.

There are approximately 41,000 Christian denominations in current estimations.  Obviously, the differences are varied.  Although I do not call myself a Christian, I place my hope of resurrection and everlasting life in Messiah Y'hshuwah's perfect obedience, death, and resurrection.  He made the way, he is The Way to a relationship with our Creator, who is YHWH.  I do not believe in the separation of "The Testaments," nor do I believe Torah was rendered obsolete at Calvary.  Y'hshuwah clearly said he did not come to abolish Torah, but to fulfill.  He set the example of what it is to walk in obedience to the Instructions given to Moses at Sinai.  The need for sin sacrifice ended at Calvary, but obedience to Torah is to follow Messiah.  The Protestant Reformation didn't bring Christians back to discipleship or the lifestyle of 1st century believers.  It is still part of the great falling away, but there is yet another movement of the great falling away, and it's big.

In the realization that Christianity has missed some major fundamental truths, many are leaving the churches.  The empty promises of a "self-serving god" have been revealed as just that, empty promises of those who preach with self-serving motives.  The move away from mainstream Christianity has brought some to the truth, while others simply insist upon keeping Torah and Messiah separated.  This new trend is exactly the opposite of Constantine's Christianity, but on the same continuum.
There are a growing number of former church members, who are now claiming to embrace Torah and reject Messiah.

The first time I heard John 6:66 in dealing with someone, I was devastated.  From that time many of his disciples went back, and walked no more with him.  That was over a decade ago.  In studying this passage the realization occurred to me that this recorded circumstance was not just a one time event.  It continues to take place to this day.  As I'm watching more of this great falling away, I've been led to Hebrews 6:6.  Interesting both references contain "the number 6, the number of man."  If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of YHWH afresh, and put him to an open shame.  

I'd like to offer a personal illustration, from a woman's perspective, not to reduce the gravity of this situation, but rather to bring to light, just how personal a relationship with Messiah is.  To renounce Y'hshuwah Messiah, my Bridegroom, and expect our relationship to remain unchanged is utter pomposity!  Recently, I have read and listened to testimonies of salvation, only to later hear, they have "progressed" in their spiritual journey to reject Y'hshuwah Messiah.  This flagrant display of rejection toward someone I love more than life itself, leaves me with this lingering line of questions . . .

What if I told you I didn't really care for your husband and thought everything he said was a lie?  What if you shared, glowingly, how much he has done and I simply shrugged my shoulders in disregard?  What if your husband had a career in public service, fire protection, or military, and I said, "he didn't do it for me?"
Would you count me a friend?